I'm torn some nights between reading a shit ton of books, or sitting down and writing. I put some music on while I write, so I'm going that route for now. If only there was more time at night to do this.
The scattering of my thoughts on the keyboard is interesting to observe from outside of me. I didn't realize it until today, but I didn't check out the scene around me that much at the coffee shop. I was lost in my own world, and was busy focusing on what I was writing. My usual thoughts when I walk in to a room is to notice an escape route, and then check out the people there. There is a game that goes in to my head where I assign roles to people based on how they look and decide what would happen if an emergency went down. I calculate how people would react and try as I can to imagine who I would want to get stuck with in that situation.
There are certain rooms and spaces where this doesn't do well. Take an elevator. The personal preference is to not use one, but sometimes the situation calls for it. Say after a meeting at work where we all jump in for the magical ride up four stories. Cramming many people in to that tiny box is almost preferable to slowly going up the stairs behind someone who is taking their fucking time.
When I walk, I walk through, around, and pass people. While walking. Do I just have that fast of a pace? Navigating through the crowd comes weirdly natural to me, almost as if those years of playing video games to find the quickest path melted in to my visual senses when navigating through people. Add to it years of serving and navigating not only around guests but also fellow servers. Several times it was observed that I was serving like a ghost, popping up from time to time and scaring some people while always taking care of the table. I always felt that as a server, the meal was the star of the show and not me.
Cultivate. I want to use that word in a sentence, but I'm not sure how to entangle it in one just yet. Cultivate knowledge?
I'm distracting myself by thinking about what book I am going to be reading soon. If my thoughts are going there, then it is time to end this for the day.
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