Space Cowboy

Sleep? Who needs that.

I've always been at odds with sleep. For my sister, she needs about 8-9 hours a night. My brother has to be in bed by a certain time each night for him to get his beauty rest. I say fuck sleep when there is a party going on.

It isn't often that I close the bar down on a Monday night these days. Who can blame me, I was having a good time. I wasn't stumbly home drunk or anything, I was just relaxing and meeting someone.

But my mind is tired, so it is the best time to write something. Let the sleep deprived neurons in my head fire off in ways they don't usually go. Let me break down the wall I put up for myself that takes years off my life.

I've been listening to a lot of Penn's Sunday School and Star Talk with Neil deGrasse Tyson. Listening to both makes me feel smart by association, or at least makes me think to see the world a little differently. I used to always listen to them on the regular back in BloNo, but I've been busy getting to listen to the random music of my iPod that they took a backseat. I finally dug my old laptop out of storage and downloaded a bunch of episodes of each.

With Penn's Sunday School, it is interesting to hear people who think like me talk and explore ideas. I don't always agree with what Penn says, but you can see the trail of where he was thinking to how he got to where he currently things. Some of it sticks in my head and influences me, the rest just goes to the back in storage.

With Star Talk I get to hear more about science and the mysteries of the universe. The universe makes me feel so big, strangely. We might be so small, and we might be a blink in the eye of intelligence on earth, but at least it is our time.

I look to the night sky at times thinking about the ocean of void that I'm looking in to. Looking at the moon and knowing if I was standing on the surface then I would be dead. Our bodies are only fit to survive in certain conditions on earth, but I would rather explore and go out to those areas that are unknown. Let me discover something spectacular that only I've seen and can describe.

I write to reflect what I've seen and experienced in the world, both the good and the bad. All of it is something that will be gone one day, while the sun keeps burning until it explodes. There is here and now, so it is time to start enjoying it.